Life goes on. It is inevitable, it is constant. There is only one absolute guarantee and that is: Time moves forward. With time many great things may happen, many tragic things may happen - regardless, you cannot change the fact that things will happen. Randomly. Chaotically. Sometimes as expected. Sometimes suddenly. No matter what, they will happen.
So it seems the best way to take it all as a healthy functioning human being is consistently and peacefully. Have your daily tasks, your to-dos, and fulfill them with passion and earnestness. Have your hobbies and let them enrich you, take time for the things that you smile and make you whole. Love those that love you back. Take the world as it comes, don't panic - just do what you need to do and take solace in the fact that you are making an effort.
All that can be asked is that you care and that you try. Regardless of whether you approach it with anxiety and dread or with tranquility and a steady hand - the results, materially, are often very similar. The primary thing that determines the quality of your work and your effort is a combination of knowledge and experience, something that comes with time.
So if the results may largely be the same materially, you have to take it from the perspective of yourself and your mental landscape. If the quality of work is not something you can conjure up spontaneously, then you are best inclined to not add that extra stress and worry.
I think a lot of our anxiety is a result of perception. We worry largely for reasons outside of ourselves. Maybe we worry about coming off as apathetic, or lacking urgency. You cannot force earnestness, especially not in bouts of panic. Because panic, anxiety, it doesn't stem from what's best, it stems from consequence. Imagined punishment. Why live under the tyranny of your brain's delusions?
Even when you do well under the pressure of anxiety you never feel content - you just feel relief. The task is done and all it did was bring you back to a place without fear. It's miserable. This is why you can't let your primary motivator be the avoidance of hurt, the avoidance of imagined consequence. Let your motivator be enrichment.
Intellectual enrichment, the enrichment of your relationships, personal enrichment. When you fail under those circumstances, you'll probably do better next time. When you fail while under a state of anxiety and fear you just become avoidant - the last thing you need is to be avoidant. This life is for living, not fearing. Do not create a life of fear. Create a life of acceptance and forward motion.
You can only apply what you know. You've only done what you have done. What you know, what you've tried, what you can do in the future, all come from living. So let yourself live.
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